"Silly Livie"

So do you remember that cute girl I showed only ONE picture of before, in my sad sob story post (still sad, but we are happy...really!) well I couldn't keep you any longer, this cute girl needed a post all about her, as if she does not have any of those already, but none this year and its March so it's her turn. Um she is silly, like really silly, like the exact replica of her dad ( and my sister Russanne). I don't know how she got so weird and random, I mean its not like I encourage it every day ;) but she makes me laugh a lot. She makes random people in the grocery store laugh, she makes her nursery leaders laugh, that is how I know she really is silly, and oh so random. And she has a crazy memory like remembering stuff from last fall, that we don't even talk about (aka sister Russanne). The girl is pretty smart to, I mean, I am waiting for the doctor to confirm how smart she is next month at her appointment, but she is smart. Like ABC's smart, like counts to 13, smart like has full blown four word conversations with me, like sings all sorts of songs smart, I mean this girl is smart. And she listens pretty well, and knows there are consequences for her actions and will play hardball with you when she really wants something, I mean this girl wont even be two for another month. So to prove this girl's silliness and smarts here is a preview of the past few months, yep there are lots o' pictures, but how can you resist this girl!

She has her very own princess clothes and she puts them on herself, its fashionable, I know

Oh and she went through a few week phase where she loved her really classy, and by really classy I mean really tacky snow boots, it was awesome...for her

You know..."the look," well she gives this look to me for reals now, my fault I know

"It's rainin mommy," thanks Liv, I wasn't sure if it was or not, but yep it is

this picture was taken today, she was supposed to be smiling cute at me but instead I got her smiling crazy as she is watching Nemo (this is the second thing she asks for in the morning next to daddy, what about me, you know mommy, the one who takes care of you for like twelve hours a day, eh can't win em all)

I didn't ask her to do anything here, she is just posing for the camera

Her cousins taught her to make silly faces

"look mommy two" She was just keeping he options open (soy milk and water)

I think she looks all grown up when she colors like this...she is getting so old

again I did not ask for anything

She is like a real kid now playing in puddles

I waited for the day that she could fit into rain boots, I think kids in rain boots are the cutest, so I make any excuse for her to wear them

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Oh you know, dad's shoes fit really well, (that's kind of what I look like when I wear his shoes)

it is what it is...

After however long it has been since my last post, I am sure this is not the post you were hoping for, nor is it my ideal post. I having been thinking about this a lot lately and just need to get some things off my chest. Please understand that we are really happy, and what I am about to announce for the world to read is what is going on. We want another baby, and have for some time now. It's no secret that it took us two years to get pregnant with the love of our life last time. But when everyone says, and I mean everyone, "oh good, now it won't take you as long next time because your body will just recognize it"...hmm. Everyone...you don't know me! Shame on me for thinking we would just get pregnant right away. Who do I think I am setting myself up for failure again? Why do people think it is so easy to get pregnant? Why do 15 year old children get pregnant? Why do people who don't want a baby get pregnant? Why do people who don't love their children get pregnant? Why? Why? Why? Lets be honest, I don't get pregnant easily and apparently there is something else in store for us that we don't know about yet, but I wish I did. For anyone who really knows me, they know that I am not patient. For instance, two months ago I sneaked on to see who the Bachelor Brad picks in the end because I just could not wait. But this is so much more than patience for me. I guess it is learning about enduring and remaining faithful and trying to see the good in the situation, wait, is there any good in this situation? I hate when people say they just got pregnant, or they were not planning it, or that they even planned it. I hate that we can't plan our pregnancies. I hate it when people say, "what do you mean by 'trying,' is trying really that bad?"Yes and no! I hate when people ask when we are going to have more kids. I hate that we waited to start trying for 8 months after Liv was born. That was precious baby making time that was wasted! I hate feeling jealous when someone is pregnant, or tells me they are pregnant, or that someone else is pregnant. I mean I am happy for you, until I start wallowing in my own self pity. I hate seeing other people pregnant or with new babies. I hate that I cry every month when I am reminded that I am not pregnant. I hate when people say just relax about it and it will happen. Who do you think you are? I hate that everywhere I go I am reminded of the thing that we want the most right now. I hate that I have to google the best ways and times to get pregnant, or that I have to read what fertility treatments will do. I hate that I hate this so much! So here I am, being reminded yet again, that I am not pregnant after a round of treatments. It would have been lucky to have it work on the first try. It would have been lucky to get pregnant over 15 months ago. It would have been lucky to get pregnant during acupuncture. We are not the lucky type, oh no, not us. We are the type that have to try really hard, who have to be tested, who have to pee on sticks, and who have to have the doctor tell us when it is best to 'try'. We are not the spontaneous type, well we are not so much right now, because right now more than anything we want to be parents again.

Now that I have aired some of my dirty laundry out to dry, I want you to know something. We are trying to do well with all of this. There are others who are going through this, but much worse. There are others who get pregnant and painfully lose it. There are others who have never experienced pregnancy,birth, and being a mother. There are others who will never even have the option of having a baby. There are others who lose their children after birth. For us, this is our trial, and for us it is what we have chosen, but it is really hard. We have been given so much. We KNOW that when all the stars are aligned this WILL happen for us again. Sometimes this knowledge makes things easier, and sometimes it doesn't(see above). We have a lot of things going for us right now, and we are grateful for all the support we have from family and friends. We feel really good about our decision to get help from a doctor, as opposed to last time when I felt like a number on a conveyor belt being the science project to see what worked best this week. But for the love, if someone could work some sort of magic and send a healthy baby/pregnancy our way, we would be indebted to you forever. I am a pretty open person, well about this anyways. Because last time when we were 'trying' I was not so open for a long time about it, and when I finally became open about it, it helped me more than anything. Realizing I am not the only one out there, realizing there is strength in numbers, realizing I could talk to someone. But for now we wait, we try to wait patiently and most of the time do pretty well at it. We/I have our/my moments. Then my sweet girl comes in and gives me a kiss and I am reminded that we have this. This beautiful, crazy, smart, stubborn little girl who we waited patiently for before. Now she is ours to keep forever, and I would not have it any other way. Because if we wouldn't have gotten pregnant exactly when we did...
she would not be ours today.

We have also had things happening in other areas in our life.
So maybe (maybe) during another nap time we will chat again.

Norris Computer?

Did you know we bought a new computer...like four months ago? What about having Internet for four weeks but I did not want a black cable literally running through three rooms of my house so we paid for Internet but had to wait to use it until our wireless was installed. Yeah that's the story of my life. BIG NEWS...duh duh duh...Jon is going to school at Boston University...did I say at, I mean online. Thought I was going to say something else huh! Would have been fun to move though being that my sister just moved there and we could have driven all the way across the United States and have the road trip of a life time. No joke I am dying to do this, maybe not with a seventeen month old, but I would do it. Other than school nothing is new but at least there is something new. I know you are not really looking at my blog to read, there apparently is only one thing you want me to post about...lame, its as if we had a baby and you don't want to see anything else, and by as if I mean that's the truth. You now its true when you show up somewhere and the first thing anybody says is "where's Liv" Its as if I never existed. Also this text..."I need to see pictures of Liv" is a pretty good indicator...you know who you are, its not like I have seen any pictures lately of your baby, just a bed. So maybe I am not the only one who posts every three months. I love Liv and to take some credit she would not be here if I were not here. She cracks me up every day, she frustrates me every day too, has anyone ever told you that there is this period where your kid thinks they know what they are saying and it makes no sense to you, then she gets frustrated and then you get frustrated, yep that's everyday! I also realized I love this stage, some communication, independence, laughter, walking, self occupation, she is the best thing to ever happen to us. She has a lot of Jon in her. Here are some pictures to prove it. PS I hate the new blog layouts...they su-uck!

New Glasses anyone...

swimsuit at the lake

who new a little swimmer could do this...

when you ask Liv "how much do you love me," this is how much she loves me...with her hands! And this was last night so it is a pretty current picture of her.

I was getting ready and she kept saying "pitty, pitty" which is pretty, and when I looked down at her this is what I found...underwear!

Doin' the Laundry

She was fourteen months here, but the rust in the background, with her red hair who could ask for more

If you were thinking there was a gap between her front teeth you would be correct. The real question is where did it come from...?

For Russanne and Kyle

Russanne and Kyle moved to Boston and few weeks ago and thought they could use a little Liv!

ONE!!

Its a bit late but it would only make since that we mention...OUR LITTLE GIRL IS ONE! It blows my mind. Of course I am a few days late posting but I was waiting for her one year old photo session. Here is a little of what this girl is doing. Not walking but crawling and pulling up like a mad women. I seriously think she is afraid to fall the two feet to the ground and hit her diapered bum, cause if she is standing and loses her balance she hyperventilates...she is just not ready, but we so are!! She is talking, learning new words everyday. List...

Mama

Dada

Papa

Ma'Ma

No No

Baba (baby and bottle)

Bipor (diapor)

Baa (ball)

Boo

WusDat( What that)

La (Liv)

Bu (book)

Ca (Car)

CoCo (Auntie Coco)

Une (One)

Wow

Berbe (something like that but it is strawberry)

Dah (dog)

Wa Wa (water)

Nana (all food, bananas, snacks and my cousin Hannah)

Men (amen, this one is so cute, she says is as soon as we start closing a prayer or right at the end and she is folding her arms too)

She shakes her head yes and no...a lot!

If you ask her if she wants lunch a snack or food she say "MMM"

She knows her dog and cat sounds..."uf uf" and "row"

She knows where her ears, nose mouth and head are, and she will point to your teeth and say "tee."

She has more words but those are the regulars...but if you ask her to say new words she tries as hard as she can to pronounce them in her language.

She loves reading her books by herself or when mom and dad are with her

Her favorite foods are strawberries, bananas, asparagus, soygurt (soy yogurt, its not good but she thinks it is the best thing to ever happen) turkey, turkey dogs, pretty much meat of any kind, kix, Cheerios, anything sweet we can find that has no milk or eggs which is not very often so when she gets sweets she is in heaven, she likes anything sour, pretty much if she is not allergic to it she will eat it, so far not having a picky eater is a dream!

This girl loves to dance she loves to sing and even though you can't understand her, she jabbers ALL the time. She squeals and laughs at the weirdest times, ps she has a little growl-grinch laugh! She has six teeth with another on the way, she points to everything and then will hold up a number one, along with the one finger...you guessed it she puts her finger right up her nose, not picking it of course she just found a hole in her nose. She has the girliest-feminine wave using only her hand and wrist. Liv can play by herself forever, which is awesome but I feel guilty sometimes not spending more time with her. She is a professional stair climber, down needs a little practice though. Liv loves playing in piles of blankets and pillows being outside, swinging and playing with other kids. So much I am sure. We love this girl so much and can't wait for another year!

This last picture is of her playing peek a boo with the chair, it was the best ever, her thinking she could hind behind this chair, we played for like five minutes!

Best Ever...

So I waited and waited and then waited some more, and SHE is finally here! Don't judge but I may have been more excited about this delivery than my own, makes sense though cause I was not the one in pain! PS, Jon already knows but, this man below is totally, totally the second love of my life!

Alright...It's Time

These were taken the day before she turned nine months, just a treat. Liv is at the cutest stage, seriously she gets better and better each day, is that possible? She has a love affair with food, she sleeps most nights 12 hours, she rarely crys, is always smiling, will give you kisses when you ask for them, will wave at you and melt your heart, listens when you tell her no, or "ah-ah" as we say it, feed herself(with her fingers of course) and can fully entertain herself for hours, best girlie ever. We will posts pictures of our house one day, but as one again I am signing in from my parents, nine month preview pictures are the extent. What a whirlwind month with remodeling the house, the computer officially breaking-time for a new one, mobile baby, and food allergies. Oh don't you worry, she is just allergic to milk, eggs, wheat, peanuts and dogs, what do we feed her you ask, fruits, veggies and meat...who knew parents who have absolutely no allergies could produce such a wonder! Hopefully she grows out of them!! She's a doll, life is great and tax returns are awesome!